Archive for Mai 2009


Mai 29, 2009

Recommend 4 books.
„White Oleander“ by Janet Fitch. Sad, beautiful, compassionate.
„Perceptions on the 20th century“ by Peter Hoeg. I liked this nonchalant storytelling and how the storylines finally mingle.
„Faust I“ A must read. I think it tells a lot about our past (at the moment I’m thinking about the concept of collective psyche and don’t know what to make of it, but it is somehow fascinating…. did you know that Germany’s psyche still suffers from the Thirty Years‘ war? Which has not really anything to do with Faust anymore. But Faust was a folkstory. And like many fairytales, folkstory etc they have some yearning, some remembering of what is no more… I like that)
„The human stain“ by Philip Roth. The title says it all – there is nothing pure, everyone is tormented… and somehow everyone is helpless and to be felt sorry for.

What’s the last thing you said aloud?
„Goodbye“. To the baby. That’s a sad thing to say to a baby. And it’s a sad thing that I can’t switch from baby-mode to law-mode without wasting around 10 minutes with something useless like memes. And that the baby cries. And this whole fml story all my blogreaders know.

What’s on your playlist?
At the moment nothing. The last piece of music I’ve heard was some piece of Haydn. 200 years have passed since he died and therefore Austrian radio keeps playing Haydn.

…going to do next?
*_* Guess what:
a) walk in the sunshine with my baby
b) pay someone to walk in the sunshine with my baby to write useless academic bullshit that society doesn’t need

How about lunch?
The mere thought of food is unpleasant.

Yes, please.


Mai 28, 2009

the baby said mama

Mai 28, 2009

… habe gerade ein Plagiat entdeckt.
Oder ist ein Versehen, dass ungefähr 20 Seiten gewisse Ähnlichkeiten mit einem deutschen Werk haben und das Werk nie zitiert wurde und nicht im Literaturverzeichnis aufscheint…. könnte aber auch sein, weil ein weiteres seeehr schlampig zitiert ist.

Muss sagen, dass mich so etwas enorm nervt. In meiner Arbeit in einer Fußnote gewisse Ähnlichkeiten anmerken? Oder den armen Kerl in Ruhe lassen, weil, was soll’s? Will ja nicht petzen. : P

Mai 28, 2009

die gute-Sitten-Klausel ist die „seid’s-a-bisserl-teppat, so lauft’s aber nicht!“ – Klausel.
Sag mir, dass ich gut in Populärwissenschaften bin. Bittäääääääh!


Mai 28, 2009

Today the baby started to laugh when the sitter came. This feels both good and bad. Good because I know that these 12 hours a week that I spend working are 12 hours spent with someone who the baby likes. Bad because… this was my smile. The smile I get. This complete baby-trust smile.
I know she prefers staying with me, which makes me feel only more bad… because she would prefer staying with me and I make her stay somewhere else. She is not her peaceful self when she is not with me. She needs constant entertainment, not only closeness, when she is with someone else. And she sleeps a lot, it always reminds me of an „off-button“ she uses. Just sleep and forget that mommy is not here, wake up and it’s over.
I don’t know. Probably I’m just the discontent type. Probably I would feel discontent as a housewife and mother 24/7 as well. Probably… but something inside my head keeps whispering „Sure not. It’d be great.“
And all these mothers who stay at home with „only“ one kid… rationally I know they are not having it easy, their (maybe noble, maybe clever) minds focussed on dull housework and sweet toddlers who can’t converse. But I envy them for staying at home. A lot. This is also strange as I never considered myself an envious person, not at all.

… this reminds me of a Bulgarian friend who told me what he thinks about his job „I eat shit for money. But it’s a lot of money.“

Mai 27, 2009

You poor, helpless little fools. If I only had the means to ease your pain…

cheap allegories and my presentation

Mai 27, 2009

Just wanted to mention that I’m in my office since 7.45 and am nearly done with my presentation.
Just so that I have it online which makes it visible to everyone, even if in fact no one cares.
Of course no one caring should be fine with me. I’m doing this for me, for my education, not for anyone else, so why should anyone care. But still… someone who’s interested would be cool.
Imagine a kid climbing a tree the 40th time yearning for a grown-ups interest.

Mai 26, 2009

Fußnoten kontrollieren ist eine Beleidigung für jeden Intellekt.


Mai 26, 2009

Looking for a cool, short (1-3 sentences) quote about honour. Latin, English or French would be far cooler than German.
Any suggestions?

Mai 26, 2009

I’m doing this meme because I’d go crazy if I just started working after this terrible sleepless night. (Two loud kids, one crazy cat). II found this meme at Kalafudra’s blog.

Do you smoke anything?

Do you like monkeys?
Yes. I mean, I don’t know a lot about them, but I think they are cute. I think having a small monkey as a pet would be fun (but I guess they are loud and dirty and it’s illegal therefore, well, forget about the monkey-pet)

How many fillings do you have?

Would you rather swim in the ocean or a lake?
A lake. But both are okay.

Have you ever licked one of those square batteries?
…nope, I was not that eperimental as a kid.

Have you ever read the Bible?
Yes. Not from beginning to the end, but I think I’ve read nearly all of it.

Did you ever go to Sunday School?

Do you wear a lot of black?
Average, I guess.

Did you ever bring a weapon to school?
? NO? Why would I do that?

Have you ever hugged a tree?
No. Maybe I’ll give it a try one day 😉

Describe your hair?
Blond, shoulder-length. Usually worn in some kind of updo or a simple braid. Sometimes I try cool hair-dos with curls and all.

Do you like to have fun?
I don’t think that fun is a goal or a purpose (too many people do and then they wonder about their unhappiness because they think it is lack of fun though it is lack of purpose that makes them unhappy…). But fun is cool. You can’t really plan it, though, without making it feel shallow.

Do you like drama?
As in theater? Yes. As in personal? No. I dislike drama-queens (and kings).

Have you ever taken a bong hit?
No. I’m really totally uninterested in any kind of drug. I don’t know why so many people consider this „cool“.

Do you like mayonnaise?
No way!

Are you afraid to die?
I’m not afraid of being dead. But of dieing, yes. At least I’m afraid of the circumstances, pain and weakness and all. Dieing could be something to accept and welcome if it comes at the right time, peacefully surrounded by your family saying goodbye. It really depends on the when and how.

Do you like playing in leaves?
Overrated. Stains, wetness, catching a cold.

Have you ever peed your pants as an adult?

Have you ever thrown up on somebody as an adult?

Are you an adult?

Ever won a spelling bee?
No spelling bees in Austria. But I would have loved participating as a kid.

Do you ever eat because you’re depressed?
Not really my kind of coping-mechanism.

Are you a television addict?
No way. TV is a waste of time. (But I think I’m slightly in danger of that kind of addiction – which is why I don’t even own a TV)

Do you think OJ was guilty?
I don’t really know the whole story as I am not American and too young.

Do you enjoy spending time with your mother?
We both tolerate each other’s life-style, but tolerance is something else than acceptance. So, well, I guess enjoyment is not really the right word. I think we both wonder about how one could want what the other one wants and/or has. Like, I would feel lonely if I lived her life … but I think she really likes it that way. And she would feel like in a cage living my life which is full of responsibilities I have chosen and enjoy.
… C. likes to spend time with her grandmother. (this was elegant.)

Do you like Elvis?
I don’t really care about Elvis. His music is good, but not my favorite kind of music.

Do you enjoy the calming effects of turkeys?
Turkeys have a calming effect?

Does your mom think someone is hot?

Are you a sugar freak?
No. From time to time I like something sweet, but not very often.

Ever been arrested?
No. I’ve been given a lift by police-men four times in my life, just because they passed by and it was raining/I was lonely/it was dark. Policemen have a tendency to be very polite and nice to me.

Ever commit a crime and get away with it?
I guess I am a very law-abiding type.

Do you like orange juice?
Fresh orange juice: yes. From concentrate: yuck.

What sign are you?
Aries (Virgo in the ascendent).

Ever do the party boy dance in front of the elderly?
I’m quite sure I didn’t as I don’t know what the party boy dance is.

Where do you wish you were right now?
Here is okay. Here without a lurking paper to write would be much better.

Did you enjoy this?
I lllove memes. But this one had many bland questions (which I just deleted *hehe*)