Write 10 random and/or weird things about yourself. (I’ve done this meme twice but there’s always something new and weird about L. Well, more weird than new.)
1.) When someone tells me “I trust you” or “Do this for us” I feel an obligation so strong that I’d like to move mountains for this person.
2.) I love blistering cold days with blue skies, when the air smells so fresh and the cold tickles your cheeks and you can see so very far over the mountains. (Of course it is essential to wear a cap.)
3.) Recently I found out that I a) feel and b) enjoy my anger rising when facing a situation where I’d usually feel myself on the edge of tears.
4.) Sleep is the drug.
5.) I can now live with not pleasing and not being loved by everyone. (Not that everyone loved or was pleased by me before… but I wanted it.) I think this is something that comes with age and getting wise. But still, sometimes I feel sad about acting against someone’s wish even though I think that I’m doing it right.
6.) Sometimes I think that the future holds very cool things for me. Then I think that everything was lost from the start and everything will be very rotten and I’m never going to score. This concerns my career.
7.) Sometimes I am so in love with dreaming that I don’t practise (like thinking about being so great at taekwondo or having my thesis finished or conversing in Russian … but I neither practise taekwondo nor Russian nor do I write my thesis.)
8.) I’d love to stay my cool self when I’m tired or hungry or hurt. But I’m more of my sarcastic, grim, evil-tempered self.
9.) I’m like a teenager in my plans. I’m so totally meant to be a law-person/judge/lawyer/pol/teacher/poet/full-time mother of 12 kids. And I intend not to decide but to do it all because I want them all. … My rational self tells me that some combinations aren’t possible (and, indeed, you can not be a judge and a lawyer at the same time). But my semi-rational self tells me “You are so cool, L., you don’t have to decide. You can totally raise and educate 12 kids, be a lawyer and a politician and in your free-time you are going to write poetry and from time to time you are going to hold cool speeches about the spirit of law at local schools.” … err, well. Maybe I have to face the reality of having to make choices.
10.) I think I changed.
